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(no subject) [Jul. 31st, 2005|02:00 pm]
I'm over it.
You see I'm falling in a vast abyss.
Clouded by memories of the past.
At last, I say
I feel it fading.
I can speak it
or else you will
dig my grave.

You feel them fighting
always whining.
Take my hand now.
Be alive.

You see I cannot be Forsaken
because I'm not the only one.
We walk amongst you,
feeding, raping.
Must we hide from everyone?

I'm over it.
Why can't we be together?
Embrace it.
Sleeping so long
taking off the mask.

At last, I say
I feel it fading.
I can speak it
or else you will
dig my grave.

You feel them fighting
always whining.
Take my hand now.
Be alive.

You see I cannot be Forsaken
because I'm not the only one.
We walk amongst you,
feeding, raping.
Must we hide from everyone?

You see I cannot be Forsaken
because I'm not the only one.
We walk amongst you,
feeding, raping.
Must we hide from everyone?



I saw the Devil's Rejects last night. Fucking loved it.
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*silence* [Jul. 11th, 2005|04:33 pm]
[I feel so: |disappointeddisappointed]
[I'm hearing: |nuffin.]

Hey everyone, how ya doin?
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Come get your bitch, she on me, dawg. [Jun. 18th, 2005|03:44 am]
[I feel so: |tiredStill Tired]
[I'm hearing: |Half Dollar - A small amount]

Stole this Survey from Levi, who stole this survey from Rob, who stole it from Monique. I bet she stole it...Meijer?

Kitten or Puppy: Puppy. I prefer dogs, but my cat over all dogs, just not other cats.

Six Flags or Water Park: Six Flags

Blue or Black: Blue

Brother or Sister: Brother

Rose or Daisy: Rose.

Sharpie or Pen: Pen

|| `*Last Things*` ||

[last word you said] G'night, Dad.

[last song you sang] Oh No - Snoop Dogg and 50 Cent

[last thing you laughed at] A family issue...can't discuss it, but my cousin Brad cracks me up. I'm proud of him.

[last time you said 'I love you'] Today, when I left for the Vu. I said it to my Dad.
[last time you cried] Whenever I last beat Metal Gear Solid 3. I can't help it, it's fucking emotional.

|| `*Present*` ||

[what color socks are you wearing] White

[current annoyance] The nagging feeling of "Oh shit, I gotta get up in a few hours."

[current longing] A steady girlfriend that I can depend on to be there for me.
[current book] ...what is this "book" you speak of?
[current worry] "Can my Jeep make it all the way to Bloomington?"

[story behind your Xanga username] Well, one of my fave Gorillaz songs, and Dante's got 2 guns too...
[current favorite article of clothing] White T. Because, I go bangin in it.
[favorite place to be] I wanna say the Vu, but it's not. My room, I guess.
[least favorite place] Work...
[strong in mind or strong in body] Mind, I'm weak and fat.
[time you wake up in the morning] Depends, if I gotta work, an hour before my shift starts. If not, around noon.

[favorite color] White

[do you believe in an afterlife] Definitely.
[how tall are you] 6'4"
[current favorite word(s)/Sayings] Argh...Crab Battle!

[favorite season] Summer. I like walking/driving around cities at night. Streetlights make me horny.
[one person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to] Alec. 'Nuff said.

[one person you wish was here right now] Alec.
[favorite day] Tuesday. 2-4-1 Red Light Special at the Vu. (Just Kidding) Uhm...all weeks are a damn blur to me.
[a random lyric] I put that battery in his back, I'm the reason why he move like that, that's my motherfuckin toy soldier. I tell him pop that gat, he gon pop that gat, that's my motherfucking toy soldier.

[in cd player] Demon Days - Gorillaz
[on feet] Socks.

[Another random lyric] Saved? Your such a slave. I don't expect a name. You don't care, I wasn't a witness I can't be a part of a system such as this.
[under bed] KW's No Doubt DVD, dirty clothes.
[what time you got up] 10 A.M., wondering where the fuck Brad Hubbard was.
[time it is now] 3:13 A.M.

|| `*future*` ||
[ideal job] Actor
[probable job] Soccer Dad...*sigh* Psychologist.

[you want to live (place)] I wanna go back home to North Carolina (I miss you, baby)

[number of children you want] 3

[kind of car] Dodge Viper.

|| `*current*` ||

[mood] Kinda tired, kinda horny
[music] Half Dollar, Not a lot.
[taste] Doritos, and a peanut butter and jelly sammich that I just ate.

[hair] Dying to be dyed a deep blue or a silver color, and about shoulder length.
[attire] My bangin white tee, blue jeans, American Flag boxers and socks.

[annoyance] It's kind of annoying that this question was already asked of me in this survey.

[smell] I smell like a stripper...
[longing] At the risk of sounding kinda cliche...love.

[desktop image] Calex and Tureer on the top of a mountain in Ghelsba Outpost, northwest of San'Doria.
[fav. music artist] Hmm...Gorillaz, Gorilla Unit, Slipknot, Stone Sour, System of a Down, Louis XIV, Disturbed...I won't go any more, I could go for hours.

[fingernail color] Kinda pinkish? I dunno, I'm all natural, baby!
[crush] Ashlee Simpson
[time-wasting wish] Phantasy Star Online and FFXI
[hate] My boss, Mike.

Friend that you've known the longest: Jason Shane
=Friend that knows you the best: Rob
=Friend that you used to like: Rob! Erm...uh...KW

=Friend that has the biggest house: Robby
=Friend that goes shopping with you all the time: Used to be Cowgill, but he moved. *cry*
=Friend that you would spend all summer with: Rob, so far.
=Friend that you would spend watching stupid movies with: Brad
=Friend that you'd go bowling with: Anyone with money to pay their way.
=Friend that you have the most fights with: Brad, but they're all arguments, because I'm right all the time.

=Friend that you like: KW?
=Friend that annoys you the most: Brad, because he needs to get his shit together.
=Friend that plays pranks on you: None, they know better.

=Friend that make stupid jokes, but you still think they are funny: Lauren or Katie.
=Friend that gives you the best presents: Cousin Brad, since he takes me to the Vu.
=Friend that calls you all the time: BrandIndiana
=Friend that is the funniest: BrandIndian
=Friend that you don't call too often: Tanner or Turtle Masta Flash.
=Friend that you call all the time: Either BrandIndiana, or Brad.
=Friend that lives in the same neighborhood: Monique
=Friend that lives the farthest away: BrandIndiana
=Friend that you just met: Monique
=Friend that is athletic: Chris
=Friend that is smart: Brad.

=Friend that knows everything about computers: TMF, hands down.

=Friend that is older than you (by more than a year): Devin or Cousin Brad
=Friend that is younger that you (by more than a year): Monique
=Friend that has the same birthday: NOBODY. My Grandma's Birthday is 2 days away though.

=Friend that you do odd things with:Chris, the possum punter.

=Friend that goes to the pool with you a lot: none, since I used to be the one with the pool.
=Friend that has the best senses of style: Rob, you hot bitch. I love the way you dress.
=Friend that never gets mad at you: Rob? I think.
=Friend that you never want to lose: All of them.
=Friend that won't be your friend if you change: BrandIndiana, but that'd have to be one helluva change. I'd have to become a druggie.
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I ain't tryin to beef, I'm tryin to get my drink on. [Jun. 18th, 2005|03:43 am]
[I feel so: |tiredtired]
[I'm hearing: |A little bit - 50 Cent]


Got home from work and played some Nightshade, the sequel to Shinobi. And my cousin called me.

So, Brad and I hung out over at John Vandenbosch's (sp) for a little while, and he downed a couple cold one's.

Then we ventured to a wonderful, wonderful place.

Deja Motherfucking Vu

'Twas Wonderful.

Spent like 70 bucks though. I do regret that. But what can I say? The girl totally fucking had me hooked.

See, I got this thing with lips. If a girls got nice lips, I can't resist.

Normally, when I go to the Vu, I wait for a little while to test the waters, ya know, don't take a lap dance from the first girl that comes up.

But you shoulda seen how damn fine this girl's lips were. D.S.fucking L. So, unfortunately, she was the first girl that talked to me, and I ended up spending way too much on her.

Brad was disappointed.
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3 strikes your out? [Jun. 15th, 2005|12:16 am]
[I feel so: |contentcontent]
[I'm hearing: |silent ambience...and the fucking fly.]

This'll be my 3rd update in the last few hours, but, oh well...

Star Wars Horoscope for Aquarius

You can be cruel and torment people who disagree with you.
Deep down, there is a peace-loving, friendly side to you.
You have a knack for inflicting pain on people and use your intellect during battle.

Star wars character you are most like: Darth Vader

This fucking fly needs to leave. GET THE FUCK OFF MY COMPUTER SCREEN!!!
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It's hard to tell though, cuz I switched the flow... [Jun. 14th, 2005|11:53 pm]
[I feel so: |optimisticIt'll happen some day!]
[I'm hearing: |Just A Little Bit - 50]

Let it be known, I will take Ashlee Simpson out on a date, some time.

My heart was broken again today, when I talked about Anakin getting hurt in Episode 3...

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White Light! Doot doot, doot doo doot! White Light! [Jun. 14th, 2005|07:06 pm]
[I feel so: |goodGood...or is it well?]
[I'm hearing: |White Light - Gorillaz]

A little story for everyone...

Once upon a time at the foot of a great mountain, there was a town where the people known as Happyfolk lived, their very existence a mystery to the rest of the world, obscured as it was by great clouds.
Here they played out their peaceful lives, innocent of the litany of excess and violence that was growing in the world below. To live in harmony with the spirit of the mountain called Monkey was enough.
Then one day Strangefolk arrived in the town. They came in camouflage, hidden behind dark glasses, but no one noticed them: they only saw shadows. You see, without the Truth of the Eyes, the Happyfolk were blind.

In time, Strangefolk found their way into the high reaches of the mountain, and it was there that they found the caves of unimaginable Sincerity and Beauty. By chance, they stumbled upon the Place Where All Good Souls Come to Rest. The Strangefolk, they coveted the jewels in these caves above all things, and soon they began to mine the mountain, its rich seam fueling the chaos of their own world. Meanwhile, down in the town, the Happyfolk slept restlessly, their dreams invaded by shadowy figures digging away at their souls. Every day, people would wake and stare at the mountain. Why was it bringing darkness into their lives? And as the Strangefolk mined deeper and deeper into the mountain, holes began to appear,
bringing with them a cold and bitter wind that chilled the very soul of them up. For the first time,
the Happyfolk felt fearful for they knew that soon the Monkey would soon stir from its deep sleep. And then came a sound. Distant first, it grew into castrophany so immense it could be heard far away in space.

There were no screams.

There was no time.

The mountain called Monkey had spoken.

There was only fire.

And then, nothing.

Whew...that was fun.

Last night was fun, hanging out with Rob and Chris and Katie and...well, the other girl wasn't all there. Fugger.

Chris chased a possum and kicked it, in front of a cop. I don't think I've laughed so hard in a while. (Sure, it sounds cruel, but I don't think he actually kicked it. He just hissed at it and kicked at it, and the possum outran him...lol, i laugh just thinkin about it) Probably one of those "had to been there" things.

Well, I'm gonna keep relaxing in a dark room, listening to some cool tunes. Later, haters.
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Learn forever, hand in hand. [Jun. 12th, 2005|04:26 am]
[I feel so: |tiredtired]
[I'm hearing: |Feel Good, Inc. - Gorillaz]


I never knew that I had such power over the ladies.


Err...not really. I just had everything work out tonight.

Thanks for the good times, Ashley. Your Graduation Party was a lot of fun.

Too tired...g'night, buds.
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Watch the way I navigate hahahaha [Jun. 9th, 2005|11:35 pm]
[I feel so: |anxiousanxious]
[I'm hearing: |Feel Good, Inc. - Gorillaz]

Ah, nothing like some good tits in your face to make you feel better, don't you agree?

Went to the Vu for the 2nd time tonight, and enjoyed myself immensly. Heh, go figure.

Ahh...I want to date a stripper, bad. That would be so much fun. They're older, and make hella good money.

"You need an older girl. One that will take care of you."

Can anyone guess what video game that quote came from?

+1 point of respect if you can guess it.
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a melancholy town where we never smile [Jun. 7th, 2005|10:12 pm]
[I feel so: |contemplativecontemplative]
[I'm hearing: |Feel Good, Inc. - Gorillaz]

It's kind of funny the way that history has a way of shaping the future. Nah, not entirely does history have a way of repeating itself. Well, kinda, but more like history recreates itself later in different circumstances, with the players in the game being shifted.

What I'm saying is, a year ago, I lost a girl that I was absolutely in love with to a complete jackass who decided he liked her as well. (I'm sure you all remember that.) That day, I vowed to never like a girl who had a boyfriend.

...but now, it's all I can do to get this one girl off my mind. She's got a boyfriend, and I'd do anything to have her dump her to be with me. Maybe I should back off her, but I actually do like her.

Fuck...could Brad's ignorant motherfuckin ass have been right? Are boyfriends nothing more than obstacles to get the girl you want? I hope not. I do hope she stays with him, to spare me the guilt.

But I'm young, this may not be the girl I spend my life with, what's it matter?

I like her, damnit. I should call her.

Nah, it's too late.

alright, I'll stop thinking about her, just listen to this song again and again and again and again and so on and so forth.

Car Show this week...fuck...just thought about her again.

We went out in 8th grade, she was my first kiss. The second kiss was at Clark Park, during the Car Festival.

Anyway, I'm working the Car Show, 25 bucks an hour. I can handle it.

Project Grad was fun. Spent a lot of time with 2 girls from my past...and there I go again, thinking of her.

*pulls out a gun*

I'm going fucking crazy, thinking about her.

I'm calling her tomorrow.

*aims the gun at his temple*

Yeah, see ya'll later.

*pulls the trigger*

Windmill, Windmill for the land.
Learn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is sticking, falling down
Love forever love is free
Let's turn forever you and me

Windmill, windmill for the land
Is everybody in?
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